Not my typical holiday season

I am the "bah-humbug" in our house. This is NOT the holiday that I get excited about. My family Christmas holiday tradition was more of the disfunctional type instead of the Norman Rockwell type, so I don't emotionally engage like everyone else does. Instead, I see the crowds, which I hate. It becomes impossible to find parking at the gym, which is located at the mall. Drivers become insane. I am always disappointed that a season which is supposed to be inspired by generousity instead becomes a time when many people revel in gluttony and greed. While it's going down, people seem to set huge expectations for the season and then come out of it feeling like they've barely survived or they were let down.

Yeah, bah humbug on THAT.

My holiday has been going surprisingly great. ( slow down and smell the nutmeg )

Data Crunch Fever

I suspect Darth Director is snapping out orders to his direct reports because that thing about stuff rolling down hill? ... My boss swooped in exhibiting classic symptoms of a near brush with Darth Bruce and our team is Crack-a-Lackin' to crunch numbers and summarize stuff.

Boring.

But my brain wanders free to a theme I've been percolating on.

Service vs. Art and how I use my time.

I'm still very angry about the decision to cancel 1 collegium a year and to muck around with the Poppy. Very angry. I ask myself, "So shut-up or put-up, right?"

But I'm in a place where I am working on my arts. I have a lot of exciting ideas (exciting to ME anyway) and I don't have enough bandwidth to pursue both my artistic endeavors and take the lead on organizing anything big. I can take on small pieces and brainstorm, so I can happily help someone else, but be in charge? I can't go super-nova with my passions in two different directions at once. And since "super-nova" is the only way I know how to dial myself in, I'm going to have to continue to fume. And wait for someone else to jump in so that I can volunteer to help.

Fuming... fuming... Like a gassy volcano occasionally spewing off fumes and soot.

And about the Golden Poppy... grr.... Since Merlin and Lee have decided the Kingdom no longer needs a Mt Everest for the artists, I've been thinking about hosting my own endeavor. I think it would be fun if I could get 3-4 (or more!) other artisans to host an arts marathon. We could choose 4 events in the year and invite fellow artisans to do an indepth project in a field that we know something of. It could even become kind of a mentoring thing where there's a kick-off meeting wherein sponsors (such as myself) present enough research to get people started, where everyone could meet, and where projects could be schemed. So instead of encouraging people to lower their expectations, they could raise them. I'm just noodling around with the thought.

Ironically, it's she who was banished for being unladylike that inspired the idea of setting up a meeting point.

ugh... people keep interupting my lunch break. I need to skeedaddle if I'm going to get down time. BUT if anyone is intersted in exploring the concept of a co-hosted projecty thing where you work with others and have some sort of display of hard work/efforts... it probably feels a lot more like the Queen's Artisans without the requirement of involving the Queen in the selection process.

gotta run. Lots of ideas. Looking for other ideas and cohorts.