No more forced marches

[threadwalker]

I'm not sure if I got old or got emotionally centered or if my search for time management has opened my eyes to another reality on the path to sanity, but I'm not interested in all-night sewing-a-thons to force myself to whip out (or finish) some project for an SCA event. I don't want to sacrafice my commitment to my family, job or health to force myself to take short-cuts to meet a deadline when there's absolutely nothing important at stake. I like to sew and I enjoy the entire process of research, design and create, but not if I am going to have to give up my health (and sanity) to do it.

Which is odd. I used to roll my eyes at the clock at midnight, metentally curse that the day wasn't longer, and hunker down to power sew until it was time to jump into the shower and go to work.

It's just odd. This is a new place for me to be. I feel so "at ease" with my world and was chatting with Farin about it last night. No more forced marches! No more "super bitch" because I've been up for days and days sewing. No more showing up at events feeling wrecked and too tired to enjoy myself. I'll work on the schedule I have set up right now (which is a weekly sewing night with other opportunities as they arise) and stuff gets finished at a sane pace that doesn't tank out my health.

This doesn't mean it won't happen because I am OCD afterall. But it means that I won't deliberately set myself up to do it or guilt myself into it.

Speaking which, last night was my sewing night, hence all this introspection. I got 2 things done. I reorganized the loft in the shed, labelled boxes with sharpie, and picked up some of the disasterous mess. And I finally made the ground-throw I've been wanting to make. It's a late-ren brocade backed with rip-stop so I can have something purdy to lounge on for picniking that won't collect every fox tail for miles. It's not 100% done (I have 2 short edges to finish) and it's essentially 5 yards or so of backed brocade which might get turned into 2 shorter throws depending on how I test drive it this weekend. It was totally utilitarian sewing and not something that my muse cared about, but it will be done tonight and that's one more project off the backburner.

Next: Finish italian over dress for June Crown
Armed and standing ready: Dress for Sabrina, which I may be able to power sew my way through by West-An Tir.

Comments

[mad-duchess.livejournal.com]

"It's a late-ren brocade backed with rip-stop"

Ooo, great idea. I may have to steal it.

[erzimagdalena.livejournal.com]

It would be a great excuse to get some of the not-quite-right pretty stuff Discount Fabrics sells.

[broider-barones.livejournal.com]

new garb happiness :)
Balance - it is all about balance

[dame-cordelia.livejournal.com]

I have always been in awe of those who could work on a project, sewing or otherwise, all night and then work the next day as if they weren't sleep deprived. It's just not in my physical makeup to do that.

It's always made me feel like I should be able to do it, but reality says "no".

[thread-walker.livejournal.com]

it's not a good thing. People always make it sound so cool, "Wow, you were up all night? and you made that neat thing!"

I want to say, "Yeah, I was up all night because my driver/complusions wouldn't let me stop. There was no choice involved, I was a hostage to my internal driver."

So I'm working on dialing that back.