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Fighting for my no-drama zone
Mar. 12th, 2009 04:10 pmLast night I had an amazing 5 minute chat with someone. We agreed that we need time to reflect ... real time to sit down and just navel gaze in order to process our lives in order to free us up mentally/emotionally to do other things. And we (the other person and I) don't get enough time for this.
This was a huge relevation to me. I experienced a lot of mental down time skiing and then even more unlooked for down-time when I was stuck on the sofa for 3 days. ( thoughts on thinking and setting goals )
I set another goal for myself yesterday: become portable at work again. Everything around me at work is fluxing and changing and I am too rooted in. I need to let go and be ready for change.
There is much drama at work and it's very stressful. I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a frozen lake and I can't tell how thick the ice is. To add to my sense of "cracking ice" my director spontaneously swung by my office yesterday (after he figured out where I sit) and apparently "checked it out" while I was out. (insert pukey face). ( careful what you wish for )
I've been eating my emotions and it's a hard habit to break, but I'm breaking it. I challenged myself to save ALL my daily points for dinner tonight since we are going out. I've been grazing on carrots/salsa, tomatoes, mushrooms, spinach salad, etc. all day. I'm going to WIN. My reward? I get to set a new goal tomorrow and I may borrow an idea from WW. One member let herself buy a song off iTunes for each pound she lost. I may do that tomorrow to reward myself for being diligent. My weigh in wasn't too hot this week, but after inforced inactivity for the last 10 or so days, I'm not that surprised and I'm not beating myself down. Instead, I'm excited by the challenge.
And this is what comes of "time spent reflecting". I'm energized and ready for my next challenge. I'm fighting for my no-drama zone. I'm not beating myself down for being fallible.
This was a huge relevation to me. I experienced a lot of mental down time skiing and then even more unlooked for down-time when I was stuck on the sofa for 3 days. ( thoughts on thinking and setting goals )
I set another goal for myself yesterday: become portable at work again. Everything around me at work is fluxing and changing and I am too rooted in. I need to let go and be ready for change.
There is much drama at work and it's very stressful. I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a frozen lake and I can't tell how thick the ice is. To add to my sense of "cracking ice" my director spontaneously swung by my office yesterday (after he figured out where I sit) and apparently "checked it out" while I was out. (insert pukey face). ( careful what you wish for )
I've been eating my emotions and it's a hard habit to break, but I'm breaking it. I challenged myself to save ALL my daily points for dinner tonight since we are going out. I've been grazing on carrots/salsa, tomatoes, mushrooms, spinach salad, etc. all day. I'm going to WIN. My reward? I get to set a new goal tomorrow and I may borrow an idea from WW. One member let herself buy a song off iTunes for each pound she lost. I may do that tomorrow to reward myself for being diligent. My weigh in wasn't too hot this week, but after inforced inactivity for the last 10 or so days, I'm not that surprised and I'm not beating myself down. Instead, I'm excited by the challenge.
And this is what comes of "time spent reflecting". I'm energized and ready for my next challenge. I'm fighting for my no-drama zone. I'm not beating myself down for being fallible.
