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threadwalkerWhat is the word for "more than overwhelmed... sinking fast and can't see the surface above my head"?
Because that's what I am at work. To (mis)quote my favorite Hobbit, "I feel like not enough butter spread across too much toast."
The total irony is that it's the job that I'm holding on an interim basis that's kicking my butt. The one that I'm good enough to be the understudy but not good enough to take the stage. There is so much freaking work to do for interim-job that on top of my regular job AND since we are half-staffed this week, I'm having mini-internal meltdowns because I'm struggling to make deliverables.
I shouldn't even be taking 5 minutes to post this, but for magical mental reasons, writing this out is serving as therapy.
On the plus side is the 40 minutes or so I spend hanging with best friends and watching kids swim. But after that I want to go home and go to bed. Instead I go home exhausted and my toe is throbbing. My toe got worked on by a professional on Tuesday and it's definitely getting better, but it periodically hurts a lot. Today I discovered that pondering heavy fighting and Erinwood triggers an adreniline release and this in turn set my toe to "full throbbing pain" mode. Yarg! Plus I have to do a warm salt bath each night before bed. By the way, that's just a different way of putting salt in a wound so it's a special time where there's more pain and I chant that it's good for me.
So in between getting home and the late night salt bath I'm sewing like a fiend. Apparently I'm faster in my head when I'm "planning" than I am in reality. Go figure. What this means is that I'm not getting as much stuff done because I need to be functional at work so I need sleep. (ta dah! sleeping = sanity). I am really really enjoying the sewing binge.
I've been watching BBC production of "North and South" and the movie "Lost in Austen" on alternating continuous loop.
So despite being slow and old and tired I have turned out linen stuff so the family will survive a hot weekend in Columbia. I love to handle linen and there's something fresh and inspiring about white linen. They stuff I've made is all very serviceable - no hand work or anything interesting. Of course, none of it is cut/made the way I'd make it for me.... I discovered many many years ago after much painful wrangling, my husband could care less about "period" or "historically accurate". He feels it must fit comfortably and meet his own SCA aesthetic. (Hence all the sewing I don't do for him.) The kids are a little better since I have the Voice of Authority with them and their choices look more like "tunic or Renaissance?" and I let them pick from my fabric stash. But in their case I have to make it "sturdy" and they grow so fast that I stopped hand finishing their stuff a few years ago. It was easier when there was only one, but when I started sewing for 2 kids of different sizes/shapes and different genders, I had to sew smart and my overlock machine is always plugged in and loaded with white thread.
Anyway, I was roaming the closets this morning doing a costume inventory for the kids and found 2 italian dresses that might fit Miss E. I always do deep hems and make the bodices extra long so I can let everything down. Yay! Unfortunately, the shirt I was thinking of for Super N is too small. Ideally, after we are done packing tonight I'll make Super N a shirt and let out a dress or 2 for Miss E.
Wow... talking project is really soothing. I'm ready to face the tornado of work now. This blogging thing is useful at times.
Because that's what I am at work. To (mis)quote my favorite Hobbit, "I feel like not enough butter spread across too much toast."
The total irony is that it's the job that I'm holding on an interim basis that's kicking my butt. The one that I'm good enough to be the understudy but not good enough to take the stage. There is so much freaking work to do for interim-job that on top of my regular job AND since we are half-staffed this week, I'm having mini-internal meltdowns because I'm struggling to make deliverables.
I shouldn't even be taking 5 minutes to post this, but for magical mental reasons, writing this out is serving as therapy.
On the plus side is the 40 minutes or so I spend hanging with best friends and watching kids swim. But after that I want to go home and go to bed. Instead I go home exhausted and my toe is throbbing. My toe got worked on by a professional on Tuesday and it's definitely getting better, but it periodically hurts a lot. Today I discovered that pondering heavy fighting and Erinwood triggers an adreniline release and this in turn set my toe to "full throbbing pain" mode. Yarg! Plus I have to do a warm salt bath each night before bed. By the way, that's just a different way of putting salt in a wound so it's a special time where there's more pain and I chant that it's good for me.
So in between getting home and the late night salt bath I'm sewing like a fiend. Apparently I'm faster in my head when I'm "planning" than I am in reality. Go figure. What this means is that I'm not getting as much stuff done because I need to be functional at work so I need sleep. (ta dah! sleeping = sanity). I am really really enjoying the sewing binge.
I've been watching BBC production of "North and South" and the movie "Lost in Austen" on alternating continuous loop.
So despite being slow and old and tired I have turned out linen stuff so the family will survive a hot weekend in Columbia. I love to handle linen and there's something fresh and inspiring about white linen. They stuff I've made is all very serviceable - no hand work or anything interesting. Of course, none of it is cut/made the way I'd make it for me.... I discovered many many years ago after much painful wrangling, my husband could care less about "period" or "historically accurate". He feels it must fit comfortably and meet his own SCA aesthetic. (Hence all the sewing I don't do for him.) The kids are a little better since I have the Voice of Authority with them and their choices look more like "tunic or Renaissance?" and I let them pick from my fabric stash. But in their case I have to make it "sturdy" and they grow so fast that I stopped hand finishing their stuff a few years ago. It was easier when there was only one, but when I started sewing for 2 kids of different sizes/shapes and different genders, I had to sew smart and my overlock machine is always plugged in and loaded with white thread.
Anyway, I was roaming the closets this morning doing a costume inventory for the kids and found 2 italian dresses that might fit Miss E. I always do deep hems and make the bodices extra long so I can let everything down. Yay! Unfortunately, the shirt I was thinking of for Super N is too small. Ideally, after we are done packing tonight I'll make Super N a shirt and let out a dress or 2 for Miss E.
Wow... talking project is really soothing. I'm ready to face the tornado of work now. This blogging thing is useful at times.
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Date: 2010-07-22 08:49 pm (UTC)I like hearing about sewing projects. I am currently without fabric and actual time to sew and even all my patterns. If I get the itch I expect it will be lots and lots and lots of shirts.
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Date: 2010-07-22 09:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-07-22 11:15 pm (UTC)*HUGS*
Date: 2010-07-23 02:26 am (UTC)