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I'm very grateful.
It's been a very hard year for myself and almost all of my family. And when I say "family", I mean my blood sister, my mom, my inlaws and almost all of the family I've choosen. A lot of people I care about are looking at 2008 as the year that sucked and we are all hoping it doesn't follow us into 2009.
For me personally, the year has been a relentless grind and I've spent most of it in my personal oubliette. Unlike most years, the SCA really hasn't been a haven of fun. There have been some fun moments, but mostly the SCA year has been a very weird year full of weird vibes. Recent changes in the SCA "sandboxes" that I play in have really disheartened me and I'm resisting the urge to turn inward and away from the activities that I've loved the most for 20 years.
But right here, right now, I am grateful. It doesn't lessen the challenges I face or that sense of being trapped in sap, but my hearth and heart are intact and give me strength. I'm lucky and I'm grateful that I recognize that I have these; I don't take them for granted. ( my happy )
It's been a very hard year for myself and almost all of my family. And when I say "family", I mean my blood sister, my mom, my inlaws and almost all of the family I've choosen. A lot of people I care about are looking at 2008 as the year that sucked and we are all hoping it doesn't follow us into 2009.
For me personally, the year has been a relentless grind and I've spent most of it in my personal oubliette. Unlike most years, the SCA really hasn't been a haven of fun. There have been some fun moments, but mostly the SCA year has been a very weird year full of weird vibes. Recent changes in the SCA "sandboxes" that I play in have really disheartened me and I'm resisting the urge to turn inward and away from the activities that I've loved the most for 20 years.
But right here, right now, I am grateful. It doesn't lessen the challenges I face or that sense of being trapped in sap, but my hearth and heart are intact and give me strength. I'm lucky and I'm grateful that I recognize that I have these; I don't take them for granted. ( my happy )
