Friday Musings

[threadwalker]

I'm whipped. (a reference to being tired, not some kinky sewing ritual or any other extra-curricular activities that might involve whipped cream or whipped cheese or whips or whatever).

So... as I was saying.. I'm whipped.
All about me...
Hubby been getting home after 10 pm, so I have been solo-parent AND missing my work outs. It really impacts my stress management and my "oneness with my universe" and I can feel myself tightening up inside.

I have the Susan G. Komen 5k on Sunday.

My shins hurt and I'm limping. This is constantly on my mind. I think that dancing up on the balls of my feet has aggravated the pain (injury?) this week because (1) I haven't been running and (2) I was feeling much better BEFORE the Ultra Gypsy work out on Tuesday (where I spent over an hour on the balls of my feet). Some minor experimention seems to support this. Maybe it's an inner calf ache and not shins... that's a nice thought. I'm pretty sure dance only aggravated it, though. As a nagging pain, this was triggered by the running. I can finally admit that I was trying to break my high school cross country time/pace.. yeah, there's just so many different ways of calling that "stupid" and I've probably already spun through them. sigh. Moving forward, I'm still running, but in a much more managed, responsible and "paced" fashion. Races are on hold until I can get a grip on my insane competitive streak.

I haven't done an intense cardio workout since ... Saturday? gah. I'm going to suck fumes on Sunday. My goal: to finish without injury.

I'm hitting gym tonight after hubby gets home (regardless of time) and then doing a spinning class in the morning. That will help flush out my stress.

My house is a wreck. I hate that.

I want to go home and sew and work out and dance and clean... all at once. I want to play music really loud while watching DVDs and simultaneously enjoying the silence of solitude. I feel like I'm bursting at the seams. I think I need a day to myself in my home so I can whip it into shape, work on some projects, and meditate. I really need to bond with my nest and chill out, but I think I need the family out of the house for the day. Otherwise my internal receiver constantly monitors the kids. Even if they are doing something else, I'm ALWAYS atuned to them and some portion of my attention is always on them. I need that to shut down for a while so I can rest and recenter myself.

Saturday chores are already mapped out and I may squeeze in a quick trip to Pixie Playland for the kids. But My mom is coming over tomorrow around dinner time. I think that she thinks that she's watching the kids Saturday eve so we can have a date night, which would be nice. But hubby is going to a co-workers house for a social activity Saturday and I have no idea when he'll be home. So I might be explaining to mom that she's watching the kids so I can take myself out to a nice dinner (Left Bank? Dead Fishies (Rock'n'Roll sushi)? House of Beef (Cattlemans)? Mimi's for their dessert?) with a good book and then go to the movies by myself. The "Jane Austen Book Club" is playing in Pleasant Hill and I may have to go to that. Maybe an early-ish show (7pm) so I can still get home in time to read to the kids and go play in the Corbie Cave after.

Boy... I'm so needy. me, me, me. Why am I so needy?

Comments

[dizzyblonde30.livejournal.com]

Honey, you're a Mom, A Wife and have a full time job, you've been training for a 5k and you're always busy , busy , busy, it's no wonder you're needing some time to recenter , that's not needy, it's human!

I hope you can get that time soon and enjoy your dinner out!

Can't wait to hear about the 5 k!
Hope it goes well!!

[ermine-rat.livejournal.com]

The fall is starting, the light is different, and holidays right around the corner...I always start to tense up around this time of year.