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Update from Crazy Land
May. 4th, 2009 09:53 amBeltane was fun. Yes, wet and cold... at one point my feet were very unhappy and I was lamenting I didn't have a second pair of shoes. But I had fun. So did Super N and Miss E.
For those with whom I didn't catch up with, I'm sad. The rain and the kids kept me under cover most of the time. And the long peerage meetings... anyway, here's a Reader's Digest Life in Crazy Land:
1. F is in India for work. The two week trip ends this Friday. I'm very lonely, he's not having fun and his commentary centers around the prevalent crushing poverty. Plus, being a single parent sucks.
2. F is in India so I went totally nuts a week ago and did an HUGE spring cleaning project. (Exhaustion drowns out loneliness). As is my MO, the OCD flips into hyperdrive when he leaves me to my own devices for more than a weekend. I slept about 5 hours between Friday morning and the subsequent Sunday evening, during which I cleaned out every closet, reogranized both kids' rooms, the family room and the "always messy" cook book area of my kitchen. Yay for the powers of my OCD.
3. F is in India, so I'm working out at home with treadmill. I also got a trainer for my bike. Deathride training continues at home. Yay.
4. Not much sewing since F went overseas. In single-parent mode I have to conserve my energy and focus on the essentials. Right now sewing is not an essential, but laundry, grocery shopping and fitness is. I am, however, coaching others, which is very rewarding.
5. One of my students was added to the Queen's Artisans at Beltane. I'm very excited for her.
6. Super N had his First Communion on Sunday which is a big deal for a lot of reasons.
7. I've had a lot of work-rant stuff lately, however, since the weather is all suck, I don't really feel like bringing everyone else down as well. To quote my favorite Hobbit, "I feel like not enough butter spread across too much toast." (or something like that).
8. TV: I am using the TV to help motivate me on the treadmill, so I'm watching a lot more TV than ever before. I'm already hooked on NCIS. I also caught the movie, Sex and the City, and got hooked. The questions they bring up about relationships are not just silly "made for TV" issues. I just finished watching the 6 episodes they had on "HBO On Demand". I think I just fell into a niche with a label, but I enjoy the questions they ask.
9. I took the kids to Beltane. We'd intended to camp on Friday and the car was loaded, but I didn't have the umph to set up the tent in the rain and the dark since I know the tent leaks and I have no idea if the airmattress holds air. Thus we day tripped. However, I did prove to myself that I could pack a weekend of stuff for the 3 of us into the Volvo. Yay!
( boring details on the challenges of taking kids to events )
10. I work too much. My schedule reminds me of several of my over-achieving male fremily. I'm super grateful to have a job and I'd like to work hard enough to keep it, but 3 jobs ago I redefined personal success and my "career" is not in my personal formula. This is a total turn-around from where I was when I got my chemical engineering degree. In the 90's my goals were on the path to steady promotion, pay increase and management responsibility. Bwah-ha-ha. That was beaten out of me with extreme predjudice. I spent the first half of my career as an engineer in man-world learning this:
a. a good looking woman does better than those who are not.
b. A little cleavage and lipstick can do wonders with getting man-people to soften their approach or even change their minds if the cleavage is backed with some real brain power.
c. Because I'm a woman I will never be as successful as my male counterparts.
d. Anytime I climb a rung in the corporate ladder or shine at work I will become the biggest target in town for the small-dick club and they are mean and spiteful. It's better to be mediocre than to stand out.
e. The only women who make it to the top are good looking, super smart and have opportunities. If any of those are missing, it doesn't happen or it's a short stint.
f. If your boss does not like you, you will get fired. Don't fight it, just move on.
( more on my unexpected career and the new challenges )
For those with whom I didn't catch up with, I'm sad. The rain and the kids kept me under cover most of the time. And the long peerage meetings... anyway, here's a Reader's Digest Life in Crazy Land:
1. F is in India for work. The two week trip ends this Friday. I'm very lonely, he's not having fun and his commentary centers around the prevalent crushing poverty. Plus, being a single parent sucks.
2. F is in India so I went totally nuts a week ago and did an HUGE spring cleaning project. (Exhaustion drowns out loneliness). As is my MO, the OCD flips into hyperdrive when he leaves me to my own devices for more than a weekend. I slept about 5 hours between Friday morning and the subsequent Sunday evening, during which I cleaned out every closet, reogranized both kids' rooms, the family room and the "always messy" cook book area of my kitchen. Yay for the powers of my OCD.
3. F is in India, so I'm working out at home with treadmill. I also got a trainer for my bike. Deathride training continues at home. Yay.
4. Not much sewing since F went overseas. In single-parent mode I have to conserve my energy and focus on the essentials. Right now sewing is not an essential, but laundry, grocery shopping and fitness is. I am, however, coaching others, which is very rewarding.
5. One of my students was added to the Queen's Artisans at Beltane. I'm very excited for her.
6. Super N had his First Communion on Sunday which is a big deal for a lot of reasons.
7. I've had a lot of work-rant stuff lately, however, since the weather is all suck, I don't really feel like bringing everyone else down as well. To quote my favorite Hobbit, "I feel like not enough butter spread across too much toast." (or something like that).
8. TV: I am using the TV to help motivate me on the treadmill, so I'm watching a lot more TV than ever before. I'm already hooked on NCIS. I also caught the movie, Sex and the City, and got hooked. The questions they bring up about relationships are not just silly "made for TV" issues. I just finished watching the 6 episodes they had on "HBO On Demand". I think I just fell into a niche with a label, but I enjoy the questions they ask.
9. I took the kids to Beltane. We'd intended to camp on Friday and the car was loaded, but I didn't have the umph to set up the tent in the rain and the dark since I know the tent leaks and I have no idea if the airmattress holds air. Thus we day tripped. However, I did prove to myself that I could pack a weekend of stuff for the 3 of us into the Volvo. Yay!
( boring details on the challenges of taking kids to events )
10. I work too much. My schedule reminds me of several of my over-achieving male fremily. I'm super grateful to have a job and I'd like to work hard enough to keep it, but 3 jobs ago I redefined personal success and my "career" is not in my personal formula. This is a total turn-around from where I was when I got my chemical engineering degree. In the 90's my goals were on the path to steady promotion, pay increase and management responsibility. Bwah-ha-ha. That was beaten out of me with extreme predjudice. I spent the first half of my career as an engineer in man-world learning this:
a. a good looking woman does better than those who are not.
b. A little cleavage and lipstick can do wonders with getting man-people to soften their approach or even change their minds if the cleavage is backed with some real brain power.
c. Because I'm a woman I will never be as successful as my male counterparts.
d. Anytime I climb a rung in the corporate ladder or shine at work I will become the biggest target in town for the small-dick club and they are mean and spiteful. It's better to be mediocre than to stand out.
e. The only women who make it to the top are good looking, super smart and have opportunities. If any of those are missing, it doesn't happen or it's a short stint.
f. If your boss does not like you, you will get fired. Don't fight it, just move on.
( more on my unexpected career and the new challenges )
